Tuesday, December 22, 2009

The Corporate Love Affair

In my career spanning some years, breezy hours and awesome seconds,I have never witnessed the tragedy of back stab. It may lead to some brows in a corporate world where often the deals happened in the wee hours of early mornings, parties thrown in the name of projects, sexual ladder are taken to reach certain peaks and so on is done for a price. I have tried to keep myself aloof from a lot of socializing in office.

Even at times, I have distanced myself from having relationships with a colleague, who is one of the hottest looking glamorous woman in town. It is due to this I sometime curse myself for not going with this path.

Then she came. She was Farha- the most beautiful women that I have had seen. Infact there was not a piece of iota of doubt that Farha would be the next spring of sunshine in our boredom official life.

In the due course of time, Farha stepping into my cubicle and discussing things with me made me too a special person. Being a teetotaler sometime can be unusually blessing at times. I was invited to parties that no one would have ever fancied of. And, that is only because of Farha. I chose not to be offended by the ignominious expression of disbelief and shock.

When you are in the presence of someone who make you believe that you are an incomplete person without her touch and presence, you think it is nice to be incomplete. I see myself as a failure rather than an achiever. I am contended or how should I put satisfied with it. Because, I learnt it in 2009 certain things are out of my league.

Over the next few moments, in the uncountable mugs of coffees and teas, I discovered that falling in love with an attractive young woman is not an offense. It is rather a time of elation. But, then when you realise that the very moment used you to as a medium for getting higher in the ranks you are revengeful. I was for a moment speechless when Farha said that certain things could not be worked out, and we were not to be couples. But, then over the next few days, over drinks and pornography movies, I realised that there is a life except love.

I may have been used in this corporate ladder, but such things are redeemable in this world only. Whatever you do, good or bad, you have to pay it back to the society in this life only. I heard that she is seeing Arun now. For a moment, I opened my drawer, there lies the beautiful snap of Farah. She still invades me at will.

Friday, December 18, 2009


I have some deep feelings inside
Wish I had words besides
Wish I had words besides

Words to make you feel happy and smile
Words to make the long lips wave miles
Words to sail you in the bottom of my heart

Alas! thine is far
And i got to whisper "will you feel my touch?

I have some deep feelings inside
Wish I had some words besides
Wish I had words besides

Sunday, December 13, 2009

India: A Nation of Division

As of today I reside in a country that had once 25 States and 7 Union Territories. I have lost count of it now. I do not even remember the last time I heard a school kid being asked how many states are there in India in the infinite quiz shows that are held in hundreds of private television channels across India. College guys and working professionals do not have much idea of the same, anyway.

Understandably, the quizmaster considers that question to change any day. I say this in a public forum and am totally clueless of how many States does this country has today? But, does this answer really matter since tomorrow every locality will have their own identity. I do not know where all this will lead but one thing for sure I am against it.

Story goes that Gandhiji had told Sardar that if partion happened it will result in more division of countries. His prophecy did not have to wait years; it happened soon and enough. Our politicans made it sure that they will do anything in the book to crush and roll these countries to pieces. After ravaging this nation and crushing it inch by inch, with skyrocketed prices and corruption at every nook, it decided to divide and rule.

I will not want to get into the root cause of why is this division of places? My question is can we not co-exist? Is Telengana separation essential? What happens to Gorkhaland tomorrow? Will Assam became a separate country? My question is if all of the states start thinking of the logic that these are neglected and they need to come out and have their own independent state.

But do these states think that having an independent State will make them free from anything that is remotely past? Do they think the center will be start taking more interest in their welfare and zillions of bucks will be spent to set up and start off with implementation? I am not a financial analyst, but my conscience suggest that a country with GDP ratio of 7.5 has lots of economic instability to look into rather than planning schemes for hundreds of other states.

I cannot understand the logic behind the rationale of a separate State. Why cannot a States co-exist and function as a unit together? Power crazy politicians will not delimit here. Taking a hasty decision such as has invited wrath and more challenges before the government. I have nothing more to add here, but I do not see any future of India. This county has gone to dogs!

Friday, December 11, 2009


As I reclined on the couch, my eyes go back to the memory lane,
with sweet memories round the corner creep up now and then,
Memories of sweet and ugly flashes with vigor again.

Somewhere could I still hear the lullaby she sung,
perhaps mom was calling me from dark woods,
Memories of attempts to fulfill my parent' desire
But,could never be the one.

Sweat she bore with all her desire,
left behind is her memories.

Memories such sweet as mine, are
only memories to die for.

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

I have not Puked Since 93'

This is one of my all-time favorite scenes from HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER. Try this sometime! It may just work...